You know... It seems to me that I have entered into a bit of a paradox here... A month ago I was at school and I had loads of things to do but I didn't have time to update my blog. Now however I have pretty much nothing to do but I have loads of time to update my blog, but I don't really have anything to update it with... So here I am, with nothing to say. Again. But, as last time, I will most likely find something to talk about. I would however just like to say that, due to a recent discussion (well kind of discussion) I feel I should say that, contrary to popular belief (well, Bethan's belief anyway) I actually can't play everything on the guitar (surprisingly). And speaking of Bethan, I would also like to say that James (what's his last name? not Normal and Not discoverer) is indeed NOT lazy he is just selectively bethan... according to her virtue's anyway.
Oh another thing,. It happened last night when I came home from Whitestone. I walked in my front door and immediately had to have a chat with my mother( she seems to enjoy it. and normally I get shouted at for something or other that I have\haven't done recently) and I was trying to explain to her what SS's challenge was (to give a word of knowledge to everyone in the room) and to explain what a word of knowledge was and how he got it and why they were so different from each other (some were words, some were pictures that needed to be interpreted). I think she finally understood it("think" being the operative word) and then I preceeded to tell her that I have had these as well. And then she asked me "So are you in touch with God then?". I found that a rather amusing question. I didn't realise that after I having been going to Whitestone for nearly a year now she still didn't know I was in touch with God.
Well now she knows.
She is a very protective mother, which, I suppose, has it's moments(mabye), but it is mostly just limiting. For example, she doesn't want me to go to Whitestone all the time because she thinks that the people that are there will take me away from her. When she told me that, I could have said something like "Jesus says in the bible that you are supposed to hate your family and friends and you should only love him". Although it does not mean "hate" it just means that in comparison with the love you should have for God, the love you have for your family and friends would be classed as hate...
But I didn't say that. In fact, I think I said absolutely nothing. but still... she doesn't seem to understand that I go there of my own free will and I want to be there and I want to be baptised and probably take covenant and move in to community!!!! but she doesn't get it... it really is quite annoying. Still, I do what I can, although, sometime soon I shall need to get her to understand(somehow) that this is where I want to go and what I want to do.
She also wanted me to get a job, but then said to me this morning that "it would be a bit complicated right now for you to get a job so there is no need to bother with it for now. We would just have to phone them up again." First of all I would say that I think "they" refers to the tax credit office or something like that for child benefit. Even though I could get a job in the warehouse(which I should talk to someone about). Anyway, instead of that, she wants to set up a new rota thingy where I do jobs around the house all the time and I can go to see my friends some afternoons but not many and I will excuse Thursday evenings. "But if you want to get a job I'm not stopping you!" she says. She doesn't get the idea that I just want to do nothing for a bit until I go to college next year. I know she means well and wants to get my life sorted so I have a structure to it. But I don't want to at the moment!!! I just want to do nothing. She doesn't know what it was like at school in 6th form! She left school when she was 14! Grrrr.
Well if anyone feels like helping with any of this stuff feel free cuz I'm still here(mostly).
I think thats about it for now. Mabye I should update this more often. I have alot to talk about for not having anything to talk about.
Well it's time to go now,
So it's goodbye from me, and it's goodbye from him.
L8r folks!
Faith
